Recently, I was faced with a decision, which required much commitment on my part. The decision to return to college, or continue making minimum wage at a fast food establishment seems to haunt my thoughts.
Commitments are made by people daily. Thus, pledging to married or financial liability for a school loan. Those obligations may seem to be simple to others, but unfortunately the decision is different on my part. Concurrently, I came face to face with a decision that would amplify my future.
The end result leads to me furthering my education. The existence of commitment made by me begins to sink in, once I registered for college.
Of course, this wasn’t the first time I has a confrontation with commitment. My first stint in college didn’t kickoff like most of my graduating class, who started in the semester right after high school. The starting point for me was the next semester in the spring. I was ecstatic after that first semester was finished.
The hard work paid off as my grades weren’t perfect with straight A’s, but my grade point average was good starting off. Thinking the summer semester was a challenge, since it was eight weeks long compared to the regular sixteen week semesters of the fall and spring. However, the summer semester wasn’t too much of a problem for me, passing the two classes I took with flying colors. While being in the driver’s seat after taking a total of 5 classes, the commitment of being a college student was a piece of cake.
Well, at least I thought it was.
You forget about the commitment being there, and you wind up falling flat on your face. For instance, I was elated to the idea that this college thing was easy heading into my third semester. Really arrogant, studied little to nothing at all, and focused on curing my boredom. Feel the need to not worry about the three classes unless there were major grades such as midterms, major papers, exams, and finals. Consequently, it did not work out as I initially thought as my grades tanked like the Titanic. Tried to recover whatever salvageable, but as a result completing the semester with failing two out of three classes and barely passing one. With my grade point average dipped below a 2.0, this was a hard pill to swallow. I could take those two classes I failed in the next semester, but this was too devastating for my psyche where it was going to take time to recover.
In the meantime, forgone the spring semester and got a job that took my mind off the disaster in the previous semester. My comeback came into mind as I pass two online classes in the fall with B’s. After a semester like that, you would think you could be alright since you terribly in last fall semester you was in, but again I was mistaken. The next semester was very similar to the semester that kicked me off my high horse. Indeed, failed two out of three classes with the exception of having a B in one of those classes. This semester was more of a knockout punch to my confidence more than anything. Negative thoughts crept in. At the time, there was no telling when my mind would allow me to come back to my studies. My time in the state I graduated high school and started college in was brought to a close as my family and I moved to the state of Washington. My self-esteem was shattered into pieces and there was no clear path to my future. Therefore, I had no choice but to face a new commitment.
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